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Turning Over a New Leaf

So, I am settling into the new home, and realising the internet connection here is just awful, compared to what I'm used to. Hopefully I can do something about that. It just makes it very hard to watch or upload videos. Perhaps this just means that I should watch/upload less!

My new bedroom is primarily yellow, which is nice. Me and mum went and bought some long thick yellow/gold curtains for the bay windows. I'm hoping this will keep some noise and cold out. I'm surprised the heating actually works pretty well, considering it's a really old place with high ceilings and drafty windows. I'm slightly off the highstreet now, so it's not quite as noisy, but it's still fairly busy. I'm no longer living with my boyfriend, so my evenings are pretty solitary.

I've just returned from a wedding in Newcastle, which was both lovely and sad. It was great to see my family and celebrate a wonderful relationship, but sad to realise that my own relationship is coming to an end, and that I will not be planning a wedding as I thought I might be by now. I've been with my boyfriend for nine years and I figured that marriage would be on the cards soon. But this year it has gradually dawned on me that it's just not meant to be. He has been a good friend to me over the years and I hope we can continue to be on good terms. But I need to acknowledge that it's time to move on.

I really did not expect this time of year to be quite so dramatic! This is a big change in my life. It fills me with those mixed feelings of anxiety and excitement. Somebody new came into my life, and it feels as though they have come to teach me an important lesson. They have come to teach me how to open up and communicate. I am quite wary about maintaining my privacy with this blog (and videos and twitter and facebook) so I'm not sure quite how much I should say. But I know it's good for you to get things out in the open. It's good just to hear yourself say things outloud or to read your own words.

I've been getting to know this new person in my life, and finding lots of surprising things in common. We are planning a weekend together which should be lovely. I don't know where this is going but I'm trying not to question it and just enjoy each present moment.


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  1. Pagan by Instinct24 October 2012 at 14:03

    Trying not to sound too cliche here, lol, but when we need to, the universe will force us to clear out familiar, comfortable yet unfulfilling, things in our lives to make room for wonderful, possibly exciting, new experiences on the horizon that we may not have even recognized as opportunities otherwise. Just be present in every moment and enjoy them as they come. **HUGS**

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    1. OathBoundSecrets24 October 2012 at 23:57

      Thank you so much, this is exactly what I need to bare in mind!! :)

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  2. Anonymous28 October 2012 at 14:40

    Wishing you all the best and seasonal blessings. It sounds to me like the tides of the land are at work in your life :) I echo what the poster above said, the Universe moves things around so you need to see and meet those with who'm your path may travel with for a while, remember they are also on their own path and will be learning from you :)

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    1. OathBoundSecrets30 October 2012 at 10:39

      Thank you, yes I consider every person in my life to be a teacher, and I hope in turn they receive a lesson from me, in equal give and take, we change each other for the better. :)

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