New Moon Blessings

So, it's the New Moon tomorrow, at precisely 19:45 GMT if you want to be specific. This is also Mother's Day in the UK and the start of British Summer Time. So, I will be setting my clocks tonight, one hour forward, and then in the morning I'll try to surprise my mum with breakfast in bed. It's a lovely way to start Eostre's moon, which reaches it's fullness at 08:43 on the morning of the 15th April. It is during April that I plan on finally moving into my new home. I have made a couple of videos to show you around, but it still isn't quite ready to live in due to the fact that we have been plastering the walls, fitting a new bathroom and new kitchen. Today I've been fixing the sheds up with my dad, and tudying up the garden. I have a bunch of photos on instagram and facebook. This will be a lovely new home, and in case you are wondering how I can afford this, it's all thanks to my brother Tom. It's actually his house he bought in auction, and he is kind enough to let me come stay with him. I have been out of work for a little while, I mean besides being self employed. I try to make a little money from my artwork which I sell through etsy, but I need a day job. I've had a couple of interviews so far, and actually got an email today about a possible new job. Fingers crossed!

I have been rethinking the Sea Priestess title of my etsy shop, instagram, youtube etc. I just worry about whther it is the right name, and whether I can think of something more original. I mean, it's all named after Dion Fortune's The Sea Priestess. Could I not think up my own unique name instead of using the title of Fortune's novel? I have been wrecking my brain for something suitable, but being by the Sea and being a Priestess does seem to sum me up rather well. Perhaps I could drop the "The" and say "A Sea Priestess" because I am one of many! I have been a self-dedicated priestess since I was 13 years old. It's that part of who I am that I'm quite shy about, believe it or not. It's the part of me that I laugh at, because it seems ridiculous for someone like me to present myself under such a title. I mean, a priestess sounds like a very serious kind of person, and I am not someone who takes themselves seriously. I think of a priestess as being a very sensible sort of person, a very organised sort of person who knows how to look after other people and even tell people what to do. A priestess is someone in charge, and that is something which really frightens me. I seem to avoid positions of authority like the plague, because the responsibility is so scary to me! But all of this is a big reason why it is important for me to take on the challenge of the priestess archetype.

I want to be the responsible adult, I want to have the courage to face the world, and this is the year that I am making it happen. This is the year that I finally started learning to drive, something I had put off for so long because I simply didn't have the confidence before. I am moving in with my little brother and I am going to learn how to pay bills and taxes and all the scary paperwork that I had always been too afraid to tackle before. I have lived with friends and partners before, but I always nominated someone other than myself to take care of the serious stuff. I was too busy floating around being whimsical and weird. It's not that I want to stop being playful, which is an inherent part of my creativity, but I want to be well balanced. With any luck, I can get this less than minimum wage job I've applied for, a few days a week or maybe even full time! Shock horror! Besides all the practical grown up skills I need to work on, there's something else I need to work on, and that's the water element, emotional intelligence. I am woefully bad at opening up to people. This is why I blog, as writing things down has always been the only way for me to open up. I don't know how to speak to people, and neither do my emotionally distant parents, which is why I never learnt this essential life skill. I was brought up in the kind of family that doesn't really talk to each other, not on a deep heart to heart level. I was brought up in the kind of family that doesn't hug each other or say "I love you". But these are the lessons that my boyfriend is teaching me, thank goodness, he's my angel.

In other news, this day is also Equal Marriage day in the UK. Same-sex marriage has finally been made legal, as of today. Hundreds of people turned out in the early hours of this morning to celebrate the momentous occasion, hailed by campaigners and politicians as a step towards "respect, tolerance and equal worth." Until this point, we have had "civil unions" for same-sex couples, which isn't quite marriage, but a step in the right direction. Now all (adult human) couples have the equal opportunity of marriage, at last! And to boot, we have had a day of glorious sunshine! Today I wore flip flops and shorts while working in the garden. I don't know how else this weekend could be marvellous, but altogether I feel it's an excellent time to be sweeping away the old and making way for the new.